samantha_bartley_ | INSTAGRAM | MAY 11

𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘐𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘚𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘶𝘳 • I set myself up to fail.. on purpose. I’m on a self love journey. I’ve seen myself at my leanest, a body that some wish for. I’ve done it I’ve seen it and I’ve let it go with intention. A lot of bodybuilders develop eating disorders or body dysmorphia after prepping because they want to hold onto the shreds or they find their self worth in the leanness. I want to challenge myself and relearn to love myself in every season of life. So today I set myself up to fail. My biggest insecurity is my legs, always has been probably always will. I found a new found confidence when I got stage lean because I got lean legs! Well the weight has come back and I stay relatively lean in my upper body year round but hold my extra weight in my legs. I haven’t worn shorts since last summer. I also believe in dressing for your body, if you don’t like something and you can wear something that makes you feel more confident.. do it! But I wanted to welcome those negative feelings and work on them. So I packed only the shortest shorts I’ve got that I haven’t had a chance to wear yet.. and I forced myself to wear them! At first I was at the hotel and the lighting was good and I was hyping myself up, cant turn back now! Then I got to the gym and I wanted to run! The lighting was horrible and I could see even dimple and insecurity.. Here comes the challenge… every time a negative thought crossed my mind I immediately said a compliment. I also forced myself to keep my chin held high and ooze fake confidence. I was not going to let it break me. Then the real magic happened… [continued in the comments] Outfit: fleo reebok #selflove #selflovejourney #innersaboteur #negativeselftalk #positiveselftalk #insecurities #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitnessjourney #fitnessgirl #fitnessmodel #loveyourself #empowered #empoweredwomen #empoweredwomenempowerwomen #flex #girlswithmuscle #girlswithmuscles #definefeminine #fyp #fitspo #strongwomen #strong #strongnotskinny #fleo #fleoshorts