Hi 👋. The meet is over and I say to myself what’s next? I’m hoping for another meet soon but I am not sure of the plan yet. People have asked me “was it difficult losing 20 lbs?”. This was not the hard part, for me the most difficult part is trying to keep the weight off and not go back to my old habits. I can’t maintain my weight to save my life 😂
I tend to go back to my old ways when I go into off season or I have no goal or weight class and I will binge eat. I would eat possibly 7-10,000cals a day by eating 3-4 meals from fast food places and eat to the point where I’m so full I can’t move and sometimes I’ll just get sick 🤕. I was spending $100 a day on shit food which was ridiculous. I am a very strict, regiment planner and I hate to know things last minute even though to some it’s not last minute 😂. If I have no plan or goal I tend to fall off or I just get mentally exhausted from doing it.
While I did super well at my meet and I reached my goal, it was tough. I tend to keep myself away from people, don’t socialize for fear of going off plan or I’d stress that I don’t have my food I can easily track and then feel like I’m failing 😬. While some people struggle to lose the weight this is sadly my struggle and I’m an all or nothing person. But I can’t fix all my bad habits in one go and I’m learning what I can work on slowly
Life stuff happens and you have to just do the best you can and still live your life. I’ve also learned I’m not on this earth to please other people all the time and do what they want and when they don’t support my goals I cut those people out 😑
I’m trying hard to get out of this funk and continue to keep pushing forward and doing what I love. Everyone sees me as this independent, fit, dedicated chick with a very strong mind and mentality and work ethic well let me tell you that’s not the case at all but I’m loving how I look right now so will work hard to stay there.
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