Is Transformation Thursday a thing? 🤔🤷🏼♀️🫣
Its always interesting to look back to high school.. to college.
—> to remember how much I actually hated soooo much about myself.
…about my body, about my choices, about what was going on in my world.
I *know* hate is a strong word, but man, it was dark!!!
👉🏼 I was uncomfy in my skin (literally every single second).
I’d hide in between my friends so that I could appear smaller in photos.
I’d NEVER want to be on the end in a group picture where you could see my arms.
I’d find shirts to wear ~out~ that had sleeves as often as I could to hide the parts of me I was really ashamed of.
I’d obsess over how my stomach and arms looked in photos.
I’d drink to blackout so that I had an “excuse” for any of the number of shitty things I did.
I’d over eat when I was sad,
but I’d also over eat when I was happy.
Or just, for any reason. I just over ate.
(I knew NOTHING about nutrition or how to fuel my body or anythingggg)
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I’m not saying that you have to lose weight to be happy.
I am not saying you have to do Crossfit to be happy (lol or am I??? Jkjkjk)
What I want to share with you all is that there is ✨HOPE✨ for you if you feel lost, alone, or sad.
There’s better times to come.
There’s freedom from those feelings of helplessness (from yourself, or your situation).
I found freedom in sport.
crossfit changed my life.
The daily habits day in and day out - those changed my life.
The people & community I am around every day - they change my life - daily.
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There was a shift in how I thought about my body.
About what I am capable of doing everyday.
I am grateful for the journey.
It coulda gone a really dark, self destructive way, for sure. And it did for a little bit there.
But I am so glad its gone this way.
I’m grateful.
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Long ramble this morning, but lately I’ve been sharing Thursday Thoughts and this one was a big one for me this morning.
Love you all, and I mean it 🤟🏼✨