VIDEO PLAYS OF STINA DANCING IN HER KITCHEN. "I remember that day 1.5 years ago, that summer day with dirty salty hair and a saggy old swimsuit that keeps absolutely nothing in place - when I just left behind and silenced all the voices that always had whispered hard and judgmental inside my head (and outside too of course) that I was ugly, too much, too fleshy, fat, emotional, loud... and I filmed myself (dancing) in freedom and I looked at the recording like ten times before I pressed the post button and suddenly I wasn't scared anymore... my mind just flipped and I saw only a person that I really liked. A person that I wanted to hang out with and get to know better. I saw her. And she was me.
When the voices awaken (ohhh yes they do) I remind myself of the feeling in that safe room, that at first sight looks like it's only me there... but hell no, there are millions and millions around me. They from the past, the present and the ones to come. The safe space for all bodies are so worth dancing and fighting for. We must keep it open. This is not only words. It is an act. Every day I make something to silence the voices that poison our minds. If that space shrinks - soon there will no place for none of us. So, don't be ashamed for yourself. Start today and be the representation you need. I needed myself. I made me visible. I got access to so much MORE OF ME! And suddenly I found all my dancing friends out there.
#stinawollterdansarförlivet which means Stinawollterdanceforlife. And that's exactly what I'm doing. I promised to live fully at my sister's coffin at her funeral. I made a promise with my hand on it, just centimeters from her tortured dead thin body only five days before her 30th birthday. It took me many years to fulfill that promise... oh what a journey though self hate and doubts. But now there's no way back; the way of no return. So you bullies, you patriarchy, you can never win. I'm already a winner. Don't you see? Me being safe here in this space is the biggest victory! U can't touch this. I don't tolerate any kidnapping of this space. Human beings can't be standardized. I come in one version."
@stinawollter ?????❤️