RG @krisgethin: I’m in grief. I walk from the gym as a dead body. I have murdered myself again - another workout from Hell. I walk away from the gym suffering in grief. I had laid myself facedown in a puddle of lactic acid until I stopped breathing. Now my body is breaking. This is art I have to suffer for in order for me to create it. Its not meant to be easy. I have to do what others aren’t to get the results that others say you cant. I feel like an empty shadow creeping along the walls and pavements when I am like this. The same journey on the way to the gym is a different story. My patience is stretched tight and everything between me and the weights are obstacles that I want to kill. Don’t get to close, I will. Don't make eye contact - keep them closed. My eyes are wild, my muscles are twitching - thinking of the weights is provocation. My mind leaves my body and role-plays the coming workout. I start to sweat in desperation. I’m almost there. Its my time again to #FACEFEAR #regramapp