I think for many of us, we had this idea or this notion that once we found our destination of self love it would mean that we no longer struggle with our bodies ever again, close the book the story is done. The end. Goodbye. 👋
Except, that’s not exactly how it worked out for me.
Not even a little bit.
You see, self love (like all love) has been more action than feeling. It’s been learning how to manage the negative thoughts, to be aware of what’s triggering them, and to start taking on new mindfulness.
What does that look like tho? Because even I’m reading back on that and thinking “well that’s some hippy dippy fluff”.
But what if we just started neutralizing the thoughts? What if we just started working on ourselves WITHOUT the pressure on our bodies to react? What if we just started by working towards feeling safe and feeling ok?
What if when we are standing in front of a mirror and begin to feel negative, we simply step away from it? Or when looking at a social media account, unfollowing it? Or a conversation you’re having, being ok to end it or turn it around?
The fact is - we will never be an overflowing cup of life and love all the time. There will be sources that fill us. There will be sources that drain us.
And they won’t be the same for us all.
But what really matters, is paying attention. Taking note of the times you feel filled, being mindful of the times you feel drained.
And like, apply to life. 💅
So that the story may continue. Word by word. Line by line. Chapter by chapter. Each of them teaching us something new.