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If you had told 16 year old me that I would be posting pictures in my UNDERWEAR on the interweb for people to see, I would have collapsed from anxiety.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I was in denial for a long long time that there was a term for how I was talking to myself, treating myself for a period of time.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Body Dysmorphia.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Through my eyes, I looked nothing like what people said. There was nothing beautiful about me, or my body. I saw flaw after flaw, and felt like the relationship with my body was exclusively negative.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Sometimes I didn't eat for an entire day, sometimes I ate as much food as possible followed with a side of guilt. Sometimes I would think about forcing myself to throw up, and I would constantly assess for ways to look 'better'.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I was afraid to feel good about myself. I didn't really know HOW to feel good about myself.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This week is Eating Disorder Awareness week, and while I may not have had that experience, I know MANY people who have.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I started writing todays blog post, and found myself writing a secret that I've never told anyone. But I think it asked to be heard, so I've kept it in there.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Today I can honestly say that I love myself, and the amazing vessel that houses my soul. Having a body is such a gift, and I definitely want to celebrate mine as much as I can.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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You are perfect, just as you are⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
D xo⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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