You can’t stop me loving myself 😜🖤 #MyThirdLove #ThirdLovePartner
[tw// body image/dysmorphia, eating disorder, mental illness, suicide]
This thirdlove set couldn’t have come at a better time! 🥺 I have lived my ENTIRE life having an awful relationship with my body. I started battling with eating disorders and body dysmorphia at a really young age. All of that followed me into adulthood and I can hardly think of a time where my daily life wasn’t constantly hindered by this debilitating obsession with criticizing every inch of myself and repeating the same hurtful words I’d been bombarded with as a kid to myself in the mirror. The plans I canceled, the clothes I avoided, the dressing rooms I cried in, the fitness accounts I followed only to fuel my self-loathing - all because I hated my body and wished I could change everything about it.
Quarantine really amplified all these insecurities for me. My body changed drastically. I spent so much time looking in the mirror and criticizing the new flaws I imagined every single day, and returning to “normal life” felt like a nightmare. I was ashamed of the body that had protected me, nourished me, and kept me alive and healthy through a global pandemic and a suicidal episode. I picked that body apart and reduced it to the ways I thought it had failed me rather than seeing it for its actual strength and power.
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